CLUELESS,
YUP that is me all right.
Why does he affect me this way? Why does he love me and how much? Obvious questions and I think the answers should be too, and probably are to anyone who isn't as
C L U E L E S S
as I am most of the time.
I go through this constantly. Why is it raining today? Why did he or she DO that? That is goofy, but then so am I...AND clueless.
Now that I got Zach and he HAHAHA unfortunately has me, (he has my
deepest sympathies), I am a LIVING PLETHORA of questions with NO apparent answers and I am frustrated.
GOD I LOVE HIM.
How did he know? How did he decide he loves me? WHEN
did he know and did he think so right away or did it take time? I wish I knew and even as clueless as I
am I know some things are better left in the unknown. But another thing Zach and I share is an ever-present, all-consuming,
somtimes really annoying sense of wild
curiousity about EVERYTHING, foreign and domestic.
WHY WHY WHY?
I used to drive my mother nuts, Well
...I did that all the time as I felt it was MY DUTY as a child
...that is our JOB you know, but I think that perhaps she thinks I am just a bit of a putz, BECAUSE I am ALWAYS so CLUE...DUH...LESS, growl. (Bear natures do come in handy sometimes, see?)
I looked at Zach and really wanted to wake him.
SHAKE him and ask him cause I know he knows the answers that I don't. I don't know why that is or why I think that either, I just do and I am clueless why. LOL. It is a relentless paradigm.
"ZACHHHHHHHHHH...HONEY? PULEEEZE wake up and clue me in?"
I only thought
that of course, cause he is SO cutesie when he sleeps. He lies on his left
side as do I (another
same), and he
snorffles. LOL. I don't know how to describe
it but his lips twitter and there is a soft sound like a PURR. I SWEAR, he purrs
...when he sleeps all cuddled up behind me. SO cute. But why I
wond...I really must stop that.
Yeh, like that will ever happen.
Growl. Ok, My friend Luke.
Kewl dude
kinda like Zach only much taller, SKY-RUBBY TALL, like my brother Alex
...built like a Brick Pagoda without the almond eyes, and a champ swimmer
...with a body that is to die for and he is my friend, although God only knows why or why he puts up with the
moi doofus. But he does. He puts up with me, tolerates really well my constant c
uriosity about everything, and says now he is really happy for me cause of Zach and I think he thinks Zach will replace him in the 'why' department
...and uh, HEHEHE..NO. I will just have a reinforcement when Luke needs a nap. HAH.
My other
bestie is Vinnie.
Yeh, I
mean how Italian can you get, FUGGEDABOUTIT? HAH, and boy
is he EVER Italian. Stud muffin to the max. Short,
sorta (5'4"), skinny to the point of being a third world country reject, and a package you could wrap every Christmas present ON THE PLANET
in, (why he doesn't need a back brace is beyond me)
...and he is also INSUFFERABLY self-confident. Italian thingy I guess.
Vinnie's family came out here for his
fathers job from, you guessed it, LAWNNNNGGGGGG EYELUND,
Newwwww YAWK,
doncha yah know, and he has an accent you
could cut with a chain saw...but I don't
wanna. I think it's kinda cute. Course he is always surrounded by
hornies of the two
boobs and a lot of estrogen variety and he loves it I think. But he has decided that I am one of the best friends he could have and both he and Luke are usually glued to me at the hip, one on each side. I wonder why that...
.SEE? CLUELESS. LOL.
Zach is pretty good natured about Luke and Vinnie and I wonder
w...nm.
Thank God. I never want to lose
Zach but I don't
wanna lose them either.
We
been friends like forever
yah know? I've known Luke since
kindergarden and Vinnie for 4 or 5 years. Always been there for me, and I know we get called the 3 Musketeers or worse
...lol, all over school and who gives a fuck,
yah know? We are
kewl just doing our
thingies and Fuck the '
tards. 'Rents are
kewl with them too. Mother thinks Luke is just so sweet (if she only knew) and Vinnie? My
God I think she has enormous self-control not to grab him, throw him on the floor or whatever, and kiss his
face off, BUT I COULD BE WRONG of course. After
all my mother is a LADY, ok, that might be a bit of a stretch.
Hehehe.
(She is
gonna kill me if she ever reads this and she will and btw, mothers are evil,
truly evil and dangerous when provoked and I have the scars to prove it.
)
Anyway, I am more than a bit clueless as I said (and said and said) and NOW? I have 22,468, 237 questions and NO answers and that is SO not fair. Life sucks sometimes, but then I look at Zach and
...hehehe, sometimes it DON'T.
But I wish I knew why he loves me so much? He is REAL GOOD at proving that in so many ways even this quick, big and small.
God how sweet and tender and affectionate Zach is, and yet around
school he is considered a REAL MAN'S MAN,
whatEVAH the fuck that is. A STUD, and
yeh...I'll give him that, but MACHO. Well, he isn't a sissy or anything like Stewie, but he isn't exactly a GUN-TOTING TRACTOR DRIVING MOTORCYCLE RACING JERKUS EITHER, exactly. Not exactly, but
yeh ok I guess you COULD say he is manly.
Yeh, ok. Sure.
Yup that he is,
manly to his rather large package, his very large feet, his wide shoulders and
narrow waist and bubble butt and
...wait. GOD he is gorgeous. LOL.
I sat looking at him as I wrote this and FUCK. I need a cold glass of water OVER MY HEAD, and the steam will rise. BUT WHY? FUCK!!!
I WANNA KNOW WHY HE LOVES ME DAMMIT. WHY ME?
I am SATURATED with
curiosity, and horny, and wonderment and horny and...
um,
yeh. Horny wins. Hands down
...and that is the only thing that is. LOL. OMG, I am SO daffy, AND clueless. WHY?
Don't know that either. You would think, wouldn't you and
sure you would that by NOW I am (DAMN NEAR) a high school SEENYAH thank you very much, at the top of my class which is
kewl out of a class of 4 and the rest are all retards. LOL. Looks like I may be
valedictorian next year at graduation with my grade point average, but Zach is
champing at
mah heels and that is so
kewl. NAWT only GAWJUS, but BRAINY TOO. WHOO HOO.
Maybe we could be co-Valley DICKS. YEH, KEWL BEANS, and why not?
Shit there I go again. LOL.
Snorffle snorffle,
as I look at his awesome self
...doing the sleep of the innocent number. SMIRK, and
no not so
...not at least not in the last few hours, God knows. We have been out here constantly, and do you know what that
goofus DID? He went out to Dick's Sporting Goods
earlier this morning after we got up and bought a FUCKING TENT, and boy is it. LOL. You ever had sex while camping? IT IS FUCKING IN TENTS. LOL, Giggle. I am hopeless as you can see I am sure. But FUCK. I am a TEENAGER, and that is a
primo requisite.
Being nuts and silly and goofy and curious. HORNY TOO, I might
add and just did.
I plead the fifth and someone please hand me one and I will be GOOD TO
...pass out. LOL.
"WHY? Damn,"
I wondered aloud and maybe a bit too loud for Zach began to stir
...and opened his eyes. FUCK I wanted him to get some more sleep. BOY WILL NEED IT.
Hee.
"Hey Baby," he grinned up at me, as he then rose and wrapped himself around me and FUCK did that feel good.
God I love this fucker. (
aptly named too lol). I know
several nymphomaniacs who would give their left testicle to be so horny-crazed. But Zach already has two that
work REALLY well, so no deal. HAH.)
Did I mention that as he does every morning (and afternoon and evening and...) Zach got me in a
liplock that threatened to set all four lips of ours on FIRE. Mine were emitting smoke, always and never a good sign.
WOW, why does that
feel s...fuck,
nm
( He gets so HUNGRY. LOL).
He pulled back and just sat there grinning like a
cheshire cat which infuriates me SORT OF, cause I think HE KNOWS he had me at hello and knows I am his until the end of time and he could tie me to the railroad track and leave me for dead and as that engine was rushing headlong over my prostrate
bawd, I would be screaming I LOVE YOU ZACH, like the fool AH ITH. Silly? Or worse.
"Hey, honey
...I
loves yah," he said again
sorta,
and I just kissed him back. I think that he realized that was the good hey
howdy he was looking for and was
gonna have and
... yep, you guessed it
...AFTER which we went running and screaming into the lake and played and played for over an hour.
GOD I LOVE HIM.
But
wh...nm.
Exhausted and WET, we threw ourselves onto the makeshift
sorta bed, in the tent of love as he dubbed it, and fell asleep in each others arms INSTANTLY. Ok, fifteen seconds perhaps, but QUICKLY
...and we slept for over two hours and then of course we both got up which has NOTHING WHATSOEVER to do with getting out of bed, and then another 1/2 hour and then we did.
Boy, can we trash a day or what?
Late afternoon and then early evening came real quick, and we just sat half naked and wrapped around each other on the small beach in our
lounger and snuggled and kissed a lot and snuggled some more and then THE DEVIL INCARNATE showed up. Nobody even mentioned FOOD, a miracle when you
got carnivorious teenagers in the tent.
"HEY you two", I heard
...three times, cause he had brought his minions with him. Tommy and Teddy (Zach's older twin brothers aka Frick and Ruckus) and I was
oh just SO
not amused, at least by the presence of Alex, but I suppose I can't kill him until I am positive I am in the
will. FUCK.
ALL were in their
baffy suits and immediately went barreling into the lake and I thought "PERFECT TIME FOR A TIDAL WAVE", or something like that, but drat no. RIP CURRENT? Lake
ain't THAT big dammit.
Pfui, we were doing SO well without the brothers Grimy, Slush and Sludge, and their friend EYE-FULL TAU-WAH since HE THINKS he is just SOOO HAWT
doncha know and I suppose he is right, BUT GOD I hate to think that.
I will tell you about my
dear dear asshole of a brother later. Quite the little TAIL. As in pin the
...lol, and I would like to with a staple gun.
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NEXT: CHAPTER IV (click here)
STEWIE and the macho dude that never was
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